Executive dysfunction is difficult to live with. For me, it means I have problems with organising my tasks, no matter how small or large they are. I have problems with initiating a work process and mustering the energy and motivation to do even the most important things.
Apart from struggling to get out of bed in the mornings, it means that I cannot effectively do my assignments on time or with enough preparation. It means that even writing this blog post takes a lot of energy and difficulty. Half of the things that I need to do just are far too much for me to cope with and prioritise. So many of the things that aren’t urgent just get left to the last possible second, when I usually struggle with actually completing. I feel like I let a lot of people down.
What are your experiences of executive dysfunction?
I am not trying to talk about things that are depressing or sad, but this is the ugly reality of my mental health. And many people’s mental health. I wish depression was beautiful and anxiety was caring. I wish dissociative disorder meant I only had a few bad days. Only a few days of feeling like my mind is wandering away.
How do you cope? How do you work to see positives in your mental health?
It’s okay though. I am okay, and I can push on. I want to help my mind heal, so I can get on with my life. Thanks for reading.