I had to quit my job.
I think that a mentally well neurotypical student would have struggled with the job I had. Although the work itself was not difficult or necessarily demanding, it was 20 hours a week on top of my normal studies. I started to get to the point where my work was taking huge precedence over my uni work – and I burnt out.
I was having huge spikes of anxiety before I went to bed, knowing I’d have to wake up in the morning and go to work. I found myself breaking down and feeling intense pressure, so much so that I was looking for any way to reduce the amount of time I’d work on different days.
Eventually, after a long emotional breakdown and a relapse in self-destructive behaviours, I emailed my resignation to my manager. I felt like nothing was gonna get better and this was the only thing I could cut out without huge consequence.
I feel like a failure. But we need to take care of ourselves. It’s important for us to recognise where we are vulnerable and where we need to retreat. At the end of the day, another person’s inconvenience is worth your mental health.
Let’s take care of ourselves.